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chapter 5 #2

__Who am I???__

Who am I when your not around, who am I when I see you here? When your not around my world's the biggest playground you've ever seen, When your here I feel like the walls around me are closing in and there's no stopping them. Who am I in the dark and who am I when the sun is up? In the dark I feel like im 5 years old again, i'm vulnerable to every thing and the only thing that keeps me safe is the sound of my mothers voice. In the light I feel like im invicible like nothing can hurt me, like every day I live a new life to take new adventures. Who am I when you tell the truth, who am I when you lie to my face? When you tell the truth it shows me that you're really trying, but when you lie it hurts me so much that it turns me into a whole different person. It's like i have to compete with you just to win the battle between us. Who am I when you say goodbye, who am I when you say hello? When you say goodbye i'm the person who worries that you'll never come back, who believes you're gone for good. When you say hello i'm the person who knows you want to be with me, who knows you really love me for who i am.

chapter 5 assignment 3

Krystal..., Who is uninformed of what she knows, lacks the facts that help her grow, is in cased in selfish lies that cut her deep, that made her bleed her one last breath. Her whole life she spent searching for a place where some one would except her for who she is but all she got was this hell that she lives in. All she ever wanted was a perfect home and family, she tries as hard as she can to put her broken family back together again. Everyday she puts on a fake smile to hide all the pain she feels inside to show every one that she can be happy for once in her life. I'm the girl... Who is brother or sister of Kiara and Matt so far apart they disappear invisible to the human eye to far away to grasp a hold of. She feels as if they're fading out of existence like she's the only one left to make things right and fix her broken family. To her they're unknown creatures apart of her world that wonder through this hell she calls life that once was a place she knew as life but now she knows it as hell. upon the earth she sees them walk like ghosts of her past, she wants them to be apart of her life but when she tries to grab a hold they reject her touch and disappear into nothingness. blinded by all the hate and all the lies she sees nothing in front of her, nothing but ghosts now apart of her past meaningless spirits forever broken. I'm the girl... Who loves and hates the way she lives, loves and hates the way she is, and loves the way she cares but hates how you don't. In her mind she hides whats real and lives a complete lie everything around her so fake and predictable, in your eyes she's nothing but a mistake, nothing but a joke. Inside it kills her to smile, outside it kills her to know he doesn't care, everyday she tries to prove herself to him but every time she tries she just makes another mistake. it broke her heart to see him go but it hurt the most to know he never really cared. I'm the girl... Who feels the way you do, who just feels for you, feels the all your pain that you gave to me the pain you left in my heart to rot away and one day kill me. It hurt so much when you said those three words, cause she knew they weren't true enough to mean anything to her. In his eyes she saw the truth, beneath his heart he did too. she knew that they weren't meant to be and one day it'll all be over forever, to her knees she sat and cried out all the pain she had held in for so long. She broke down and gave everything up all for him just to show him how much she really cared for him, hoping it would change his mind about how he felt about her. In her heart she loves him most but beneath her smile tells the story of a girl who lost it all for one man who meant the most and hurt her so much when he said good bye the day he broke her heart. I'm the girl... Who needs to live for herself and not for him, to understand that she needs help putting her broken family back together, and take it all in and just forget all the things that she regrets and all the pain she ever felt. Fight after fight, cut after cut, all she wants is the pain to stop all the pain she held inside to go away so she can feel like every one else. She fought for her dependence and received what she wanted, but in the end it all came crashing down. Day by day she pushes for hope of finding a better life outside her own world, Locked inside she hides how she really feels, when she finally decides to give up it all pours out like a pool of water just waiting to escape. But she waits,waits for one person to show her they actually care for her. I'm the girl.... Who gives up everything just for him, who lives her life just the way he wants her to, who fakes everything just to be with him. Apart of herself becomes numb and invisible, she does what she's told just so he'll stay, her love is precious saved for just one man who can give her every thing she's ever needed, a better life and one thing she's never had HAPPINESS. Beyond the pain she reaches out to touch what she needs to be happy for just one moment of her life to make her feel like some one actually cares. She opens up to let you see every thing that she can be and everything she hides inside from the rest of the world, there's one mistake you didn't see, behind the puppet is her puppeteer controlling everything she and everything she feels. I'm the girl... Who fears happiness, every night of being alone, having no one in her life that cares and actually means it. Of not knowing if she'll ever be happy for every thing she's done, inside she cries for forgiveness and begs for happiness but she knows that she'll never have either of them. Her broken family and relationship shows who she really is, one part after the other breaks off and just disappears never to be seen again. She picks up the pieces one by one no one to help her put the peices back together, one peice missing and she knows its all over, she knows she'll be broken forever until that missing piece falls back into place put back by the one that cares the most. I'm the girl... Who would like to see everything disappear that all went wrong, every one but her to be happy, and see her self in a new world where no one cried and every thing she ever did was right. All the pieces of her life fall back into place, and for just once would like to see the one she really loved to be happy for her no matter what happened or not matter what mistakes she made. Every mistake she ever made just so she can make it right, but in the end she messed everything up all over again. The mistakes she makes are bigger than she can handle or right when she knows they're wrong, no forgiveness is given to her the only thing she gets is blame and shame from every one and every thing she ever did. I'm the girl... Who shares nothing and keeps it all inside to hide from the world, if she lets out how she really felt, her whole world would come crashing down. Everyday she shows how she really feels for him, she promised him she'd never lie, but when she decides to tell the truth it ruins everything she ever knew. By keeping it locked up she saves herself from all the pain and all the lies she's ever known, picture perfect she cries to him but all he can say is it's not you it's me.I'm the girl... Who is lifeless and unappreciated by everyone she knows, in every ones eyes she's a nobody a worthless person put on earth with no purpose. She lives a lie and knows that's the truth, she sits in her room just to be alone that way she knows she can't make any more mistakes or mess any thing up. to keep herself from ever hurting any one ecer one agian. To herself she says that every thing will be ok but in her mind she knows that nothing will ever be the same. to broken to care, to hurt to do anything any more all she wants is happiness and for some one to come fix her broken heart. I'm the girl... Who is resident of bemont ny the place she became some one she never thought she would become, a place she thought she could start over new and leave all the mistakes behind. Here she found out that every thing is just the same as it was before, some how in the back of her mind she knew that every where she went would be nothing but mistakes nothing but pain. Her whole life she tried to make every thing that went wrong, right just to see if it would make things better for her and her broken family, things are just getting worse and there is just no stopping what she started. Harnish